Hi everyone it’s Isabella! I have been struggling with a lot of really hard issues in my life recently with my dad having a new illness. I have cried and prayed a lot. It has been very hard since I learned that my dad has dementia. I wrote him a letter when I was angry and scared. I used a lot of curse words and I’m not proud of that. I wanted my dad to hear me and understand that he can’t give up on us. I do not want my parents to get a divorce. My mom does not want a divorce. My dad is giving up on us. It’s really hard and really scary. I’m not scared of my dad having dementia. I am sad for him that this is happening. I know he is scared too, but leaving us is not going to help protect us from it.
My parents have been through too much to give up now. I am going to love my parents no matter what happens. My dad has always been there for us no matter what. I know my dad is afraid he will become someone that we have to take care of constantly and maybe he’s right. It’s like my mom says nobody can see the future. I know it would not make a difference if things did end up that way. We do not love people for their abilities.
I think about my friends who are completely dependent on others and it doesn’t make their families love them any less because that is not how a family works. I can’t understand why my dad thinks it would be different for him or how not being here would somehow make us not think about him because it’s not true. I’d love my dad no matter what. I will love him no matter what. I want him to be here to love me back. I know if something happened to me my dad would never let me go, but now he’s letting go and it hurts a lot.