Watching your body progress through life can be like watching a hibiscus bloom. You watch it blossom into full maturity, then you watch it age throughout the day, and eventually it dies and withers away. And there’s nothing you can do to stop it. Its not a pretty image, vivid, especially when you experience it first person, but definitely not pleasant. Throw disability into the mix, which can cause early aging of joints and other body parts, and you’ll find many of us get OCD when it comes to doing everything we should on a daily basis – eating only healthy food, drinking enough water, getting proper sleep, exercising. We can’t get better, but we refuse to let our bodies get worse.
Aging is one of the things in life – the ultimate thing honestly – that makes being a human really suck. As a disabled woman in her early ‘30s, I think a lot about how my body is already aging, worried about how my shoulders and bladder will feel 10 years from now, and I’m feverishly trying to get healthier as a result. After years of avoiding the proper intake of water, I’m finally changing that. I’m also eating less processed foods and I’m doing adapted yoga each week. I’m feeling great, but the perfectionist in me is still not satiated. Why mind, why?!
No matter how much I do, enough is never enough. I want to buy more expensive vitamins, I’d love to strictly only eat local/organic meat and dairy, I’m wishing I could stand in my standing frame all day. My mind can’t be shut off when it comes to my endless quest to get in the best paralyzed-shape possible. I worry I’ll never be happy no matter what I do, because subconsciously nothing will make me happy unless my paralysis goes away and I start walking again.
Its funny. Before I started my quest to get healthy, none of this bothered me before. I’m so happy I’ve finally become a health-nut, I just hope I’ll learn to be happy with what I can do, and be even more ok with what I can’t.
Are you a health nut? What do you do to stay healthy?
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